Readers, please excuse my absence. I’ve had some bad luck the past few months…and it gotten worse recently. Perhaps in a post in the near future I’ll post about it. It would be more like me to post about it after the experience is over…though it would likely help me more to post about it while going through the experience. If you were to know me in real life—I have a tendency to withdraw a bit when things get rough. Frankly, learning activities have stopped. I’m in survival mode—where basically day to day activities have stopped. Regular activities just do not seem to fit the mood of the house.
After finishing this paragraph I have decided to change my mind. There is nothing to be embarrassed about. Many people in the world are going through the exact same thing…and if you aren’t then someone you love likely is. Maybe my words will help someone out there to know that it isn’t only their family in pain and worry. Maybe I’ll be able to connect with someone else out there and feeling less alone will help….
My husband was laid off. I’ve been staying at home with my daughter…so this means no income. Zero. So, since I’m worrying about how to pay next month’s rent, electricity, or gas…sorry, learning has taken a backseat. I hate that. However, it is difficult for me to go on as normal when every second I’m awake I have so many worries competing for my thoughts.
Other hardships have occurred the last few months so we do not have money in savings. There were no signs. My husband went to work one day and 10 minutes before going home he was given the pink slip. It just doesn’t seem fair that companies do not have to give a notice to their employees.
I do have some good news. I found a job working as a therapist. I’m very happy about this. It seems like a great job. My only worry is that like most therapy positions you aren’t paid a set amount. You are paid according to how many referrals you get, thus clients. So…at first it is going to be very slow. Thank God for this job, however! It gives me hope! My husband has sent out well over 300 resumes. The job market is the slowest I’ve ever seen. My husband’s bother manages a store. His company just laid off 20 people and he was getting to lay off 10 more. They aren’t even seeking application and he had to buy a file cabinet just to hold the number of resumes he’s received in one month. One week of resumes was a stack as thick as approximately from fingertip to elbow. So…there is stiff competition out there.
Anyway, I’m scared. I’m embarrassed. I feel helpless. I don’t know what the answer is. I feel alone…until I turn on the tv and know that so many other people are feeling the same way I am. Still, until it happened to me, I felt protected.
Please pray for my family.